| Fucking depressed again. |
[21 Feb 2008|10:03pm] |
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I'm loosing friends left and right. Most of them are on the internet that I just never see anymore or talk to. I don't know whether it's them or me... but I have a feeling it might be me.
I can respect if they don't want to talk to me anymore. It happens. People grow apart. But I wish they wouldn't create new screen names and hide behind them. That's just being a coward and saying that I'm not important enough to give at least an explaination or a goodbye.
Just a slap in the face, I guess.
It's depressing.
In other news, I got stoned yesterday and had an actual, out of body experience. I was sitting at the Ouija board, talking to the usual ghosts and I had this sensation come over me. It was like I was looking through the spirit's eyes instead of my own.
And as cliche' as it seems, we do actually have better connection to the dead when we're high.
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| Straw Everywhere. |
[03 Feb 2008|11:41am] |
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Well, it's official.
I am now playing Johnathan Crane AKA The Scarecrow in a Batman SL devised by my friend. And he's playing the Mad Hatter which should make things all the more interesting, especially if we manage to find other characters to roleplay with as well.
We started last night, just to get our feet wet and kindof size up each other's characters and where we need improvement. I can honestly say I think I did a pretty good job in portraying Crane. And of course, my friend needed no encouragement as he was already perfect at the Hatter.
It's hard though, playing a criminal mastermind. Especially one as elegant and as cunning as Crane himself.
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[01 Feb 2008|11:42am] |
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Nothing to really update.
Another fish gone missing.
Need to update my story but I can't get into the right kind of mood. David is a hard character to pull of with any credibility so I'm stalling around and waiting for the right moment until I'm either pissed on in some kind of sadistic fetish mode.
Maybe I should watch Hellraiser.
Or Rocky Horror Picture Show.
At the same time.
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| It's a conspiracy. |
[30 Jan 2008|02:57am] |
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Alright, I don't know how its happening, but my fish are disappearing inside my tank.
I keep Mollies, Guppies and two enormous goldfish, one which is eleven years old and absolutely blind while the other was a wild one I caught in a pond. Origionally I just had those two and so I finally thought that I would clean up their tank a bit and get a new batch of fish to liven things up.
I started with a few guppies and then got some mollies as well. All livebaring fish that give live birth so within a few months (I'm hoping) there were be a lot more.
Problem is, my mollies, the bigger fish, keep disappearing.
Like, entirely.
One minute they're there, the next they aren't. I've tried to figure out where they're disappearing too and I'm completely stumped.
We have two filters in our tank, and at first I thought they might have been getting sucked up in there. However, the guppies don't and the damn things wouldn't be working right if they did.
I also wonder if my other fish eat them but the goldfish are both fed on flake and wouldn't be able to catch them. This leaves only the other mollies and I'll admit, I got a few aggressive ones in the tank. They mostly pick on the goldfish, biting them and eating some kind of bacteria or something that grows on them. But even then.. I still can't believe that they would kill (especially my female mollies) another of their kind. I mean, wouldn't the guppies be first?
Then again, maybe it's the guppies that are the killers.
Or someone breaking into our house late at night and taking my fish.
That must be it.
Damnit.
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| The Doors of Perception |
[28 Jan 2008|11:15am] |
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Another kind of depressing day. Not much to write about so instead, I'm posting some links to watch Jim Morrison dance up on stage.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Z7ZucE_olEs
Jim dancing during the peak of "The End" song which is one of my absolute favorites.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=J3fu-Pe6Yvk
This is one of my favorite videos of him. I think it's the one where he was on the Ed Sullivan show and they told him he couldn't say "girl, we couldn't get much higher." Of course, Jim said it anyway and I don't think they were ever invited back lol.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9wr_i3Y9_c4&feature=related
This is one his poems. They actually didn't add the beats and background music until after Jim had already died. This is one of my favorite poems of his.
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| Testing... 1...2...3 |
[27 Jan 2008|12:29pm] |
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Woo! Another journal. Hopefully I can stay on top of this one and gain a little more activity and such.
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